I am glad to have met alot of you, I needed to get some stuff off my chest as I had to leave alot of facebook groups. And make another account.
My mantis had been egg bound to the point where it would drag its body on my hand, that the front half of it would tip over leaving the bottom half up right. Where it tried to hold onto the top and the bottom half would almost pull it down.
I had it rumored that i killed it, even on a mantis forum "once" . I needed to get it off my chest. I am not a killer of my mantis. I didn't do what i believed should've been done, I was wrong not to do what I felt was right. Thanks to others getting in my face about it, my mantis suffered. I don't care if others claim their more experienced, sure you've done it longer I'm not saying you didn't.
But you weren't there, you weren't there when I noticed her suffering or how she dragged her body on my hand. Her legs slowly pulling up as she died, you weren't there when her claws clutched my hand and she gazed up at me. Or how i cried begging her not die, she was old. She was egg bound, I made a grave site for her. I bawled my eyes out, tears are still filled in my eyes as i write this. I loved her with all my heart, but I'm also not stupid. She couldn't live through this, she was going to die.
But was it better to let her suffer?, to let me suffer? Yes i called a few people ********, because they acted like one. They got in my face, they acted they knew what's best for MY pets. No you don't know what's best for my pets, I know whats best for MY pets.
But know this.
I would do anything, ANYTHING for my pets. They are the reason I am alive today. High school I was in a bad place, i owe my life to my animals. So if any of you feel different of me because of this, think about this. I have one cat who died, one whose dying. Another whose 19. I have anxiety and depression. Maybe think about what I am dealing with, and why I snapped.
I was wrong to call people ********, but just cause someones more experienced doesn't mean they know the whole situation.
Thank you guys for listening, and sorry its so long.
I hope you guys have a great weekend, and thank you for those who stuck with me as a friend.
Jessie.
My mantis had been egg bound to the point where it would drag its body on my hand, that the front half of it would tip over leaving the bottom half up right. Where it tried to hold onto the top and the bottom half would almost pull it down.
I had it rumored that i killed it, even on a mantis forum "once" . I needed to get it off my chest. I am not a killer of my mantis. I didn't do what i believed should've been done, I was wrong not to do what I felt was right. Thanks to others getting in my face about it, my mantis suffered. I don't care if others claim their more experienced, sure you've done it longer I'm not saying you didn't.
But you weren't there, you weren't there when I noticed her suffering or how she dragged her body on my hand. Her legs slowly pulling up as she died, you weren't there when her claws clutched my hand and she gazed up at me. Or how i cried begging her not die, she was old. She was egg bound, I made a grave site for her. I bawled my eyes out, tears are still filled in my eyes as i write this. I loved her with all my heart, but I'm also not stupid. She couldn't live through this, she was going to die.
But was it better to let her suffer?, to let me suffer? Yes i called a few people ********, because they acted like one. They got in my face, they acted they knew what's best for MY pets. No you don't know what's best for my pets, I know whats best for MY pets.
But know this.
I would do anything, ANYTHING for my pets. They are the reason I am alive today. High school I was in a bad place, i owe my life to my animals. So if any of you feel different of me because of this, think about this. I have one cat who died, one whose dying. Another whose 19. I have anxiety and depression. Maybe think about what I am dealing with, and why I snapped.
I was wrong to call people ********, but just cause someones more experienced doesn't mean they know the whole situation.
Thank you guys for listening, and sorry its so long.
I hope you guys have a great weekend, and thank you for those who stuck with me as a friend.
Jessie.
